Monday, April 13, 2015

#MicroblogMonday's: Baby #2


Josh and I never wanted a large family. Most days, we just planned on 2 kids. (Maybe a third, but we could never agree on that.) Since we only planned to have two, I wanted them to be several years apart. If I was only going to do the baby stage twice, I wanted to savor every moment. So we decided that when the 1st child started school, we would start trying to have baby #2.

This weekend, it hit me. If things had gone as planned, we'd be trying for baby #2 about now. Our little girl would have started Kindergarten this year.

Realizing this opened the wounds back up this weekend. I spent most of yesterday in tears. I could write more about it, but I'm still pondering several things in my heart, so I will save that for another day.

 You can find more of this weeks #MicroblogMondays posts HERE.

7 comments:

  1. I have no words of wisdom to offer but I can offer huge hugs! (((((HUG)))))

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  2. It is so hard to let go of a vision you'd long carried for yourself, for your life.

    I'm abiding with you, {{{Savannah.}}}

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  3. No good words, but sending a hug. It is so hard.

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  4. Some days are always harder than others.

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  5. There with you- it's sometimes these unexpected landmarks that are more upsetting than the original problem. Lots of hugs.

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  6. Sending hugs. Realisations creep up on us, and hurt all the more for being unexpected. Hoping you regain your equanimity soon.

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