Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Unlucky

I think I'm bad luck in the adoption world. I refer situations to friends, only to have them not turn out. Its so frustrating. I've dealt with it for me personally. God isn't going to give me kids. I'm ok with that. But it upsets me that other people can't have kids. I feel like every other month I refer a situation to a friend and each time it doesn't end happily. I just want to give up. I feel like I just am setting them up for more heartbreak each time. Its like the feeling that everything you touch breaks. For me, its everything I try to do in the adoption world doesn't work out. And I'm sick of it.
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  1. The JensensNovember 15, 2011 at 8:48 AM

    I'm sorry! That totally stinks. God works in mysterious ways....errr...."sucky" ways!

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  2. JewlsNovember 15, 2011 at 8:56 AM

    I think even if it doesn't work out, people appreciate your referrals!!

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  3. UnknownNovember 15, 2011 at 9:26 AM

    I understand, I was in a similar situation... A friend knew a bm that was having twins, can you imagine? She was looking for adoptive parents, picked my friends through my referral, and then I was there when they got the phone call that the bm changed her mind and left town... It was devestating... Although in hindsight it was that match that made my friends persue fostering to adopt and now they are on the cusp of adopting 4 siblings... and one of them they got as a newborn... so DON'T be too hard on yourself, and don't quit trying to help your friends... God is definitely using you as a tool for their stories...

    Much love,
    Sara

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  4. AnonymousNovember 27, 2011 at 8:51 PM

    Hi Savannah, I am so touched by your posts. Reading them makes be feel like I'm part of something bigger. That this strange anomaly happening to me is not so strange after all. So what if everyone else is moving on with the 'natural' progression of life (you know? the whole - fall in love, get married and have kids routine?). It's been 9 years for me. To my more insensitive family and friends, its 9 unproductive years. But it was 9 years well spent with the one I love. Keep posting in here cos I'll be rooting for you all the way. :) - Love, Salisa

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  5. ADecember 2, 2011 at 7:55 AM

    Dont feel so downcast. I am also a woman who can't bear kids - probably for no fault of mine. Focus on yourself, build ambitions outside of society norms. Nobody is unlucky forever. We have to fight harder and change ourselves. Nobody can be unlucky forever. Wish you love and Luck.

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  6. HeatherDecember 29, 2011 at 12:06 PM

    So, I know this friend that you referred to people...she is awesome, REALLY awesome also very pretty and nice and humble. Anyways, I think god was using you to kick her husband. Because hearing adoption "maybes" one right after another after another (right after he said he was done) he realized that god in deed want him to keep traveling down this lonely, dark, scary, emotional, misunderstood awesome path. Love you!

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